Day 1

Just got out of the first day of the bar about an hour ago. I'm trying to nap but I guess I had too much caffiene-_- so I will blog instead.

So the CA bar is like this:
Day 1: 3 essays for 3 am hours, 1 performance test for 3 pm hours. 13 possible subjects to be tested. (CA only test)
Day 2: 200 MCs, split into 3 hour sessions. 6 subjects tested. (National test)
Day 3: repeat day one.

Day 1 was not devastating, but a bit weird. I feel like they're experimenting with us. All three essays tested in an unusual way. Better than the truly WTF questions, so no complaints, but slightly offputting. The performance test was somewhat straightforward but also a little unusual. I missed some pretty obvious issues in the last essay but otherwise I feel... Not bad.

My essay predictions have been pretty weak so far. This is why I don't gamble :P Even when it's a 50/50 chance, I always pick the wrong one.

What's kind of funny is that one of our lecturers had suggested watching a movie the night before the exam, and this whole time I have been deriding this 'ridiculous' suggestion. But then last night, V for vendetta was on tv and I ended up watching the whole thing -_-* Good movie.

Forward march.


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And here we are

It's the second to last night before the bar. I've been wavering between being absurdly calm and overly stressed for the past week or so. Barbri had left us to our own devises a week ago and since then I've just been trying to pull all the pieces together. At this point I've done enough to feel like I won't blame myself if It Which Shall Not Be Named happens (yes I'm fiending to watch some Harry Potter). Literally thousands of practice multiple choices and hundreds of essays. I probably overkilled it yet I still feel lurking doubt, especially when I'm learning something new with each new practice question hah.

As I look back on these past two months, I only have a few observations: (1) two months went by like nothing even though I was parked at my desk most of the time, (2) as painful as bar studying can be, barbri is awesome, (3) CA really likes to screw us-- only state with three days of exams, a slew of extra subjects and distinctions-- NY you don't even come close! :) ah well got to take the good with the bad... And (4) my mom is awesome.

I'm Harry about to face Lord Voldemort. Apprehensive but trying to convince myself I'm prepared.

'Subpoena Duces Tecum!!!'

My Lord Voldebar is so fail.

Well we'll see how I feel on Thursday, 5:01 pst.


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Smooth Seas Do Not Make Skilled Sailors

"Smooth seas do not make skilled sailors." -African proverb

So I recently downloaded the cutest "gratitude journal" onto my iPhone (search "happy tapper" or "gratitude" on the app store... look for the Buddha Baby). Each day I jot down five things I'm grateful for, and I get a quote in return. I think it's a sweet idea, especially as I can sometimes be a very glass half-full type of person on certain things.

After one of the most tiring days of Bar/bri (btw, I so failed on my attempt to chronicle my Bar/bri adventure), I got this quote. It really connected with me, partly because I enjoy alliterations, party because of the imagery, and partly because it was so timely. Sure it's been said a many times in many ways, but sometimes timing is what matters.

I don't like rough seas but I must learn to appreciate them.